My point of view

"Was that you Baby"?

Yesterday I got to 19 weeks! I cannot explain all the emotions I felt, but one for sure, BLESSED! I am so blessed to be here. It has been a long road already, but a long road I can handle. I just feel so happy to be at 18 weeks and hoping that this baby is healthy and will stay with us. I also felt alot of anxiety because we lost Eliana around 19 weeks. I know that I have to trust in God. I just continue to pray, and hope.

So, the coolest thing happened yesterday...the baby started moving!!! At first I wondered if it was really the baby because it felt like little nudges, or pokes. I laid on the couch looking at my bare tummy and thinking, "was that the baby?" After several hours of the same feeling, I basically decided that it had to be the baby. HOW COOL! I loved it. At one point while watching my bare tummy, I really thought I saw my tummy move, not allot, just a little poke. It was so amazing. I called Chris and told him and he thought it was great. I kept waiting for the baby to move again when Chris got home, and hoped that Chris could feel it or see my stomach move, but he couldn't see it or feel it, I guess I have to be farther along and the baby has to be bigger to make bigger movements.

I cleaned the house yesterday and did some laundry. It looked allot better. I still need to clean the floors and wipe the bathrooms down, but I think I will wait till tomorrow, or maybe this afternoon. I also cooked dinner last night, and after it was done and I cleaned up, my back was pretty sore. It was so sweet though, Chris came downstairs after taking a shower and said, "your the bestest wife ever!" It was so sweet, I thought to myself, wow, he is such an amazing husband. He told me that he was so thankful for cleaning and doing laundry and cooking. All I can say is that I truly am so in love with this man, and he is such a blessing. I love him so much.
Last night I had a really hard time sleeping. This is becoming the norm. I hope that I don't spend the rest of the pregnancy having such a hard time sleeping. I fell asleep ok, but then woke up around 3 and was really hot and my back hurt and I couldn't get comfortable. It is easy to get frustrated when this happens, but I try to keep calm. I felt bad cause I woke Chris up, but he wasn't mad, he was concerned and wanted to make sure I was ok.

Today I am not feeling the baby as much, but I know the baby sleeps on and off. I am really happy to be 19 weeks!

17 + Weeks

My Mother told me that I could not worry and trust at the same time. She was right.

At 17+ Weeks, my belly continues to grow and so does my anxiety. I call my mother often when I am worried, upset and need some encouragement. She always turns it over to the Lord and refers to the word of God to help me re direct my thoughts. I am so blessed for her continued thoughts and prayers as well as others who are also praying.

We are very excited about this baby, and the longer we are pregnant the more we are in LOVE. Of course who wouldn't be, right? We spend allot of time talking about the baby, and praying. We love to look at baby stuff, and also look online allot at bedding and furniture for the nursery. We have been told the gender, but we are waiting to announce this news until I am 20 weeks.

I am starting to feel better, although I still have some bad days. For the most part though, the 2nd

trimester is going fairly well.

We use the doppler about every other night, this helps allot.

WE LOVE HEARING THE HEARTBEAT.

I am really looking forward to when I feel the baby move again. I keep waiting, but nothing. Mom says that she thinks that because I first felt the baby move on Aug 20 that I will probably have the baby sometime around Jan 15-20, so we'll see. I would be very happy with these dates, anytime, just as long as the baby is healthy.

All my books say that you should start feeling the baby move anytime between 18 and 22 weeks, so given that I am now 18 + weeks, I am very much looking forward to this remarkable feeling. I really can't wait till Chris is able to feel the baby too. I know he is so excited.