The other night when Chris and I were laying in bed, I suddenly said, "oww!", and Chris said "are you having circle pain"? I started laughing and he was like, "what"? I laughed and said "you mean round ligament pain", and he said, "yeah, round, circle, same thing". It was so cute and so funny! I thought it was a great pregnancy moment to document.
Well today I am 16 Weeks and 6 days. It has been a bit of a rough week, but me and baby are still doing ok. I am still cramping from the cerclage, and still having to take some meds for the pain. Yesterday I had a scare and Chris took me to the Dr to get checked out. As it turned out he said that I had maybe bladder spasms or probably uterine contractions and put me on some meds to stop the contractions. It really scared me when I started cramping so bad, they were so intense and I hadn't felt that kind of pain before, and decided to call the dr, which later we just decided to go see him, just to make sure all was ok. We are glad we went in, and later that evening we came home and found that the doppler we had ordered had arrived in the mail! We were so thrilled. We used it last night and got to hear the heart beat, it was amazing. (I am going to do a full post on the doppler a little later this week).
All in all, I am doing ok. I am still blessed to have this little miracle healthy inside my tummy and we are getting more and more excited about this baby we created. We continue to pray DAILY for the health of the baby. I am still nauseas at times, but starting to get a little more energy day by day.
Chris has been amazing and continues to love, encourage and calm me during this pregnancy. I am so blessed to have him. 
We had a little bit of a rocky week, but we made it through. Bed rest is not easy on my husband, but he survived. He is so strong and I am so blessed to have him. He and I have been struggling a bit with finances and he is teaching me that all the little "wants" are not that necessary and we really need to save money and pay bills and so I am learning to do this, with his direction and help. It is not easy. He has always been very responsible and able to keep his finances and our finances in order. Thank goodness he is so careful, if it was up to me, we'd be in trouble for sure!
The past couple of nights it has meant so much to me to be near him and I have found great comfort in his gentle embrace and loving ways. He has realized that pregnancy hormones are very real, and even though it may be very frustrating and confusing, he is really there for me and helps me get through my bad moments, scary thoughts, and he reminds me of my faith and he even seems to be able to put a smile on my face.
He has been tough, and I am so thankful for his commitment to his work. He works so hard, and I know he's be so much happier doing something else, easier, but he is committed, and everyday, he wakes up and goes to work. Thank you Lord for such a hard working man.
A dog is a man's best friend, or should I say, a girl's best friend. For the past 3 days I cannot stop crying. I know that pregnancy hormones have allot to due with my situation and make the tears flow faster and easier. I also know that lifes struggles play into this state I find myself in now. But when I am crying my eyes out, I look up and find the friendliest face. Her face, the face that says "it's ok mommy, i love you mommy". She makes me better in a way, even if it is only for a few moments, and before the next wave of tears come upon me, I know she will still be there waiting to comfort me. She makes me calm. She knows nothing of this stress, worry, anxiety, fear and confusion, she just knows that her mommy looks sad. She jumps on me with both paws close to my face and licks the tears away. She cocks her little head to the side and waits for me to sigh a sigh of relief and for a moment pause and take in all that her has offered, love. She offers love. She offers it unconditionally, asking nothing in return. She offers love, wanting only to perhaps be held and feel love back, which in a way heals me. Her love is healing. I am so blessed to have her and I don't know that she will ever really know how much I love her, but I will tell her. I love you Gracie. Mommy thanks you for all you do to make my tears fall a little less.
I am so thankful that Chelsie came to stay with us right after my surgery. I was put on bed rest following the surgery and it was so helpful for her to be here with me. She was so sweet and helpful. I am also very glad that we got to spend time together before she heads to college. I had surgery on Aug 11th at 8:30 AM at St. Lukes Hospital in The Woodlands. I had a hard time sleeping the night before, I guess I was just nervous. The morning of the surgery I was feeling pretty calm. I woke up about 6:30, took a shower and got some comfy clothes on for the day. Chris and I drove to the hospital and both prayed. I knew that the Lord would take care of me and baby, and I believe that he gave me a peace for that day. When we arrived to the hospital we checked in and went to the 2nd floor and only waited about 5 minutes before the nurse took me back to my room. Once in the room (pre-op area) I changed into the lovely hospital gown, and the nurse prepared me for the surgery. I saw Dr. Young and the drug dr before heading to the operating room. I was surprised with myself, I was a little nervous, but my prayers and the prayers of those who prayed were answered, I was confident in my Dr's abilities and felt a peace that all would be ok. The surgery was to sew closed my cervix. It is called a cerclage. It only lasted about 45 minutes and then I was taken to the recovery room. Soon after I woke up, Chris was there holding my hand and smiling. I was very happy to see him. I stayed at the hospital for a few hours and then was released that afternoon.
I am still recovering and am on bed rest. My niece Chelsie came to help out and Chris has helped allot. Being on bed rest is hard on him, he is not used to doing everything, but he is toughing it out. I am still on pain medicine and having cramps because of the surgery. Over all the surgery was successful so far, and we hope for a full recovery soon.
Tomorrow is the day of my surgery (cerclage). T0day I have felt pretty good and actually had some energy so I decided to clean and catch up on stuff around the house that needed tending. I did a few loads of laundry in between cleaning, dusting, vacumming, and picking up. I also gave Gracie a mini hair cut and bathed her, she is now clean and cute, but afraid of the thunder outside. It feels good to get the house cleaner and Gracie clean before tomorrow. I also wanted to get these done because I will be on bed rest for the next several days and needed it to be done. I couldn't stand looking at it all.
Dinner needs to be made soon, I am getting hungry, but I am waiting for Chris to come home and carry the vaccum downstairs so I can vaccum 1st floor and then kitchen, before starting dinner. After dinner I think I will take a shower, or a bath.
I am beginning to wonder if I will be able to sleep at all tonight? I am feeling a bit nervous about the surgery tomorrow. I know that I need to trust in God, it is just hard sometimes. I feel a little worried about the baby, a little nervous about how the cerclage will hold up, but again, I know I must rely on God.
