Letters to Tristan

Dear Tristan,

I am 32 weeks pregnant with you, and so full of emotion. I am excited beyond words, but I am also nervous. I often wonder if I will be a good mother to you. I am just not that familar with infants, and it scares sometimes to think that there might be times where I don't know what you need. I long to hold you, to see your beautiful face...but I hope that I am able to comfort you.

I am surprised sometimes that we have made it this far. When I was 24 weeks, I was addmitted to the hospital for pre-term labor, and the dr and nurses felt that you would most likely arrive early, and put me on bed rest. Now look at you, you are rocking and rolling!

Just yesterday, at our dr appointment, Dr Young had a huge smile on his face, and you couldn't help but notice how proud and excited he was about me making this far...he said "32 weeks!" "You are rocking and rolling"! He was right!

It has been such an adventure, one that I forever will cherish. Daily I am filled with such happiness and feel so extremely blessed that you are growing inside and that one day, your Daddy and me will have the joy of holding you, looking into your precious eyes and telling you how much we adore you, love you and kissing your oh so soft skin.

We are almost finished with your nursery. I sure you hope you love it. I have enjoyed decorating it so much. I have just a few last minute touches to add. You probably will not notice all the details that make it so perfect, and precious, but that's ok, your Daddy and I just had to make it beautiful for you. We have decorated it in blue (North Carolina Blue--one day you will understand--one day you will lay with your Daddy and watch a game with him), brown, white and ivory. I handmade so many of the things in your room. I don't know why, but the entire time I have been pregnant with you, I have had the urge to make everything. Thanks to one of your Grandmothers (Daddy's Mom), I was able to teach myself to sew and made all sorts of things in your nursery. Daddy helped out tremendously, he is quite creative and has enjoyed adding special touches to your room.

We have bought all the clothes you should need when you arrive, and a few extra peices (just because we couldn't resist). I love buying your clothes, they are so little and so cute! I cannot wait to dress you in these precious clothes and take pictures of you. Oh, yes, there will be so many photos. We have washed the clothes (all expect a few) and have folded and hung them up. We have also purchased many other items for the big day, and your arrival. There are only a few more things that we need to have before you are here.

Our Baby Shower was nice. Friends and Family joined us to celebrate your upcoming arrival. We were so blessed to have been given the shower by Jennifer, Mark and your future God Mother Tisha.

Your Daddy and I have decided to make my brother Dusty and his wife Tisha, your God Parents. This means that if ever something happened where your Daddy and Me left to be with the Lord, you would go to live with them. We picked them carefully, making sure that this was the best fit for you, and we feel very confident in this decision. We know that they would love you just as we do, and that you would enjoy your life with them. They are delighted in this decision, and have been very supportive during my pregnancy.

We still need to choose a Pediatrician for you, we have to do this soon. Don't worry though, we will soon.

We Love You!
Love,
Mommy