Our First Moments Together

The first time I held you so many emotions ran through my mind. I was so relieved that you were here, in my arms, safe, healthy and beautiful. I couldn't believe it! You were so small, so soft, and so innocent. I loved every part of your being. I forgot so quickly that I had gone through so much pain to get you here. In our first moments together I knew you were my miracle, my gift from God. Oh, Tristan, will you ever know how much that first moment meant. You are so special to me, I love you so dearly. I forgot that I had just been cut open so that you could come into this world. I wish I would have been able to see you open your eyes for the very first time, but I was able to hear your first cry. Oh how I treasured that sound, that sound was heavenly, it was what I had longed to hear forever. You cried and my heart opened more, it opened more so that I could love more. I cried too, I couldn't hold my emotions back. We were so blessed baby boy. We loved you instantly when we found out we were pregnant and loved you even more when we saw you the first time. You were a big boy, a whoping 10 lbs you were! We were shocked! We never expected you to be so big. I had been on bedrest for all of the pregnancy basically and did eat my fair share of Milky Ways :) but still, we didn't expect 10 lbs. But nevertheless, we were in love! A chubby little face, you had, and barely opening your eyes, the world was so big and scary I am sure, coming from your nice and small home in my womb. But baby boy, this world, as scary and big as it is, it is full of so many new and exciting adventures yet to discover. You are going to be amazing! You are a miracle, never forget that! Your father and I were scared often that we would never meet you, God had other plans. God held you in his hands, as he still does and will always. I pray that you seek him all the days of your life. I pray that you make him your very, very best friend.