Breastfeeding - Update as of 2 months

I thought I would write a short update on how bf is going these days and how it went from the start. I wasn't sure that I could say that I always knew that I was bf, or use formula or both. I could say that I didn't really make the decision or choice until I became pregnant with Tristan (I think I thought of it a little with Elliana, but I honestly don't remember). But with Tristan, I knew that I wanted to, and needed to bf for as long as I possibly could, and prayed hard that we would be able to bf with ease. The Lord has blessed us and I have been bf exclusively now since Tristan was born. He has never had anything but breast milk and the breast. I know that I need to pump and introduce a bottle, but this is no easy task. I will talk more about pumping later.

When Tristan was born, via c-section, he was healthy and we were able to bond quickly afterwards and he was introduced to our parents, and then after a short time with them, I put him to me to nurse. He did remarkably well, and I (even though I was not confident) seemed to do pretty well myself. This new bond was so sweet and I felt so needed by him, I felt that he and I became so close, so fast, it was a huge blessing. I can't say that it hurt too bad because I was on meds from the surgery. After the meds started to wear off, it did hurt a bit, but nothing unbearable, and it only really hurt right when he latched on. I continued to pray that bf would work well for him and I, and God has been so faithful in blessing us.

We needed and still need to bf, as we are financially hurting so bad that this is our best solution for his needs when it comes to being nurished, and our abilities financially. Plus, it really helps me and Tristan bond, and it is a special time I get him apart from the world, it is our time to share glances of Mother and Son and I am embracing this bond and treasuring it everytime.

I must also admit that although it is a huge blessing and I love it, I really do; there are times where I find myself stressed, and a little bothered, just being honest. Those times are in the morning, when I am all warm, cozy and very tired, and he is hungry, and it is hard to remember our "special time" when I am really just wanting to sleep. I pray for strength and drink my coffee and look into his beautiful eyes and love him, I nurse him, and thank my Lord for him, for the miracle that he is.

At 2 months old he is still nursing exclusively. He bf about every 2 hours during the day and at night he is starting to sleep for 5-6 hours, which is AWESOME! I have tried to pump once, and it didn't go very well. I haven't tried again. I need to try again, and will wait until he can go longer in between feedings during the day.