Today I had been having issues getting a let down while I nursed Tristan and felt like tonight would be the same...and I was right. I had done research online for this problem and found a few suggestions and had been trying them, some I had already tried before. I have been experiencing this problem for the past week, and it has really been upseting me, making things worse, I'm sure...because stress only makes this issue worse. I tried everything tongiht and asked Chris to help by rubbing my feet (he wouldn't) and this really pissed me off. I cannot even say how upset it makes me that he wouldn't help me. Anyways, I tried and tried and nothing worked, to makes matters worse, Tristan wanted to nurse so bad, and it broke my heart and I coudn't feed him the way he wanted. I saw milk and even saw milk when I pumped, but I just felt like if I wasn't getting a let down, then he wasn't getting the milk he needs. I had no other choice but to feed him formula. I know that these days it is healthy and good for babies, it's just that Tristan has never ever had it...he has only had breastmilk. I want to breastfeed him until he is 1 year. I am hoping I will still be able to do this. I pray all the time that I will. I don't understand why I wouldn't get a let down. It broke my heart to have to give him formula. I gave him Enfamil lipil (Pharmacy recomended). 6 ounces, warm. I cried when I made it, I cried when I fed it to him, and I cried afterwards. I am so upset. When I was feeding him, and I would put the bottle down and try to burp him, he would try to nurse and I would start crying more, I felt sooooo horrible, he wanted me and I couldn't feed him....it just tore me to pieces! I continued feeding him and held him and kissed his forehead and told him I loved him. I saw a tear fall from his eye, why was this? I don't know...
He ate almost the entire bottle, but he fell alseep. Sound alseep. I couldn't believe it. I put the bottle down on my nightstand. I stared at him, wondering if he was going to awaken when I got up to walk to his room. Holding him closely, I kissed him on the cheek and nothing, not a sound, he was still alseep, I slowly made my way to his room and gently laid him in his crib. I covered him with his blanky and just stared....I still couldn't believe it....he was alseep and I did nothing really to get him to sleep. No rocking, no music, no special sounds, no patting, no sushing...nothing....nothing but feeding him a warm bottle of milk, well, formula.
Now I am laying in bed. I tried to come back to bed after putting him in his crib and go to sleep, but I found myself listening to his music box, staring at the image that it projects on the celing and just wondering what happened...how did he just fall alseep, and why, oh why did I have to use formula, why oh why couldn't I get a let down. So upset still. Happy that my baby is full and alseep and hoping that it doesn't upset his tummy. I know nothing of formula, but hear that somethimes it can upset thier tummy's when they are exclusive bf babies. I really hope he will be ok tomorrrow. I really hope I get a let down again tomorrow morning and everytime I nurse. I breaks my heart when I think I will have to give him formula again becuase I don't get a let down.
Chris and I are fighting tonight, no kiss goodnight tonight, he went to sleep and left me in the kitchen with the bottl of formula and Tristan. Oh and tears running down from my eyes. I am angry at him tonight, and very hurt. He told me that "it wasn't supose to be like this". I asked for him to explain and he said, in so many words, that I wanted to be a stay at home mom and that he wasn't supose to be doing all the things he was doing, I was supose to be doing it. I became very hurt and told him to go to bed. He did, without any hesitation. I feel empty, hurt, lost, upset.
Just hoping that I can get a let down tomorrow and start feeling better soon. Also hoping I can fall alseep soon, when I am this upset, it is hard to sleep.
Monday, September 6, 2010
First Time for Formula ....and the tears that went along with it
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Developing Patience
I have seriously been struggling with patience, and I must admitt, this has, forever that I can remember, been my weakness. Lately, however, this weakness is at 100%, and boy am I struggling.
I pray constantly for me to have more of it, and if it weren't for God helping me endure things, I wouldn't know what would happen. Thank you Lord for teaching me how to have patience, please continue to help me.
Becoming a Patient Woman
29 Jul 2010
Rachel Olsen
"We also pray that you will be strengthened with his glorious power so that you will have all the patience and endurance you need." Colossians 1:11 (NLT)
In a heart that values instant gratification like mine does, patience seems hard to come by.
In the last several weeks I've raced through a yellow light because I didn't want to wait at a red light – that's dangerous! I've looked up my symptoms on the internet because I didn't want to sit in a doctor's waiting room – that can be dangerous too. I've paid extra for an item off the internet because I didn't want to stand in line at the store – that's wasteful. I've also eaten dessert first, because I didn't want to wait until it was "time" for dessert – well, that's just called for sometimes! Though I can't recall a specific instance, odds are high that I lost my patience at some point and fussed at my kids.
We want stuff and we want it now. We want results and we want them now. Yet the Bible repeatedly says that patience should be a way of life for followers of Christ.
God is love and patience is part of His character. For you and I to love like God loves, patience will be required (1 Corinthians 13:4-7). Loving as God loves is the ultimate goal as we walk through this life seeking to please God and become like Him.
I define patience as the ability to endure graciously. We all have to deal at times with people or circumstances that try our composure – an ungrateful child, an inattentive waitress, a slow moving line at the cash register, a spouse or friend taking our efforts for granted. How graciously do we behave in these circumstances?
The Bible says God will be faithful to complete the good works He began in us (Phi lippians 1:6). That implies there's going to be some "in the meantime" when we're all less than perfect and less than easy to love. This is where patience comes in. The apostle Paul instructs us to "walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace" (Eph.4:1-3).
We also have to exercise patience with God as we wait for His full plan to unfold. At times we must wait for answers to prayers, for deliverance, for provision, or for Him to dispense justice or reveal His will. We really have no choice but to wait in these circumstances, but a woman developing patience will endure the wait graciously. It helps to remember how very patient God has to be with us on a daily basis!
Exercising patience isn't just an exercise of the human will. The kind of patience Paul is talking about is a fruit of the Spirit d eveloped in a woman's soul in tandem with God. It's a virtue that grows from her confidence in the sovereignty of God and His ability to bring all things to completion, in His timing, in a way that benefits His children and glorifies Him.
This patience-thing may take some time to develop, but I've decided to graciously endure the process. I started today by stopping and waiting at a yellow light. As I sat at the intersection, I thought about God and about developing patience. The light turned green a mere minute later, and I went on my way with a smile on my face, happy to be a woman who is embracing patience ... even if in a very small way.
Dear Lord, thank You for being so very patient with me. Help me to develop patience, and display that quality for Your glory. In Jesus' Name, Amen
Related Resources:
30 Days to Taming Your Tongue by Deborah Smith Pegues
Visit Rachel's blog – and be patient if it takes a moment to load!
God's Purpose for Every Woman: A Compilation of Favorite P31 Devotions by various Encouragement for Today authors; Lysa TerKeurst and Rachel Olsen, General Editors
Application Steps:
Pray for patience - daily.
Keep the word "patience" in the forefront of your mind today and look for opportunities to be more patient.
Reflections:
Who in my life can benefit from me extending them more patience?
How would becoming more patient change my day, my outlook, my health, or my relationships?
Is my patience stronger than my temper?
Power Verses:
Proverbs 25:15, "Patience can persuade a prince, and soft speech can crush strong opposition." (NLT)
Ecclesiastes 7:8, "Finishing is better than starting. Patience is better than pride." (NLT)
Romans 15:15, "May God, who gives this patience and encouragement, help you live in complete harmony with each other – each with the attitude of Christ Jesus toward the other." (NLT)
© 2010 by Rachel Olsen. All rights reserved.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Words I Must Write
As I gaze at the pacifier Tristan steadly sucks on, I cannot stop thinking, will it drop out of his pursed lips soon. I remember that Chris told me that I cannot get up until it drops, or he stops sucking on it, which means that he is asleep enough to get up out of the rocking chair (ever so slowly he says) and pace a minute or two. Moving too quickly would startle our strong willed baby boy, and we DO NOT DARE. So, back to where I was, oh yeah, staring, staring at a paci, the miracle that paci is. I am rocking back and forth, back and forth, and my thoughts drift off...in the corner of my eye there is his laundry folded and sorted on his window seat, I need to put that away, of course I've been saying that for a week, why is it not done, oh yeah, THERES BARELY ENOUGH TIME TO GET IT WASHED, thank heavens it is washed. Still, I am a neat freak and it is seriously bothering me now, yes, I will get it done tomorrow when my hubby is home to help me. Quickly my thoughts turn to remembering how much time I USED to have. Boy oh boy were people right, they told me when I was prego to enjoy my time, I did, in a way, but now I realize all the time I REALLY had, and I am disapointed in myself as I recall having honestly wasted SO MUCH TIME. Doing what? I don't even remember, watching tv alot, which is what I had to do alot being on bedrest, but I also wish I had worked on photo books of our wedding, honestly...it is still not complete, 2 years married and no photo book, what is wrong with me. Enough, moving on! Oh yeah, as my eyes move across the room a little I find myself looking at the mold of my prego belly (belly cast) that my hubby did of me, wow, look at that belly! Then I began remembering my belly grow and grow, and then I think about how I barely recognize myself. I mean, I know who I am (I think), but I barely recognize this body, this face. I am a little sad. Then I am angry, not terribly angry, just stating reality, reality that no one I know voiced some of the frustrations I experience. Maybe they never felt it, but I did, I do. I am so in love and blessed to have this beautiful baby boy. He is my miracle, I love him dearly, but sometimes, I must admit that I am striken with guilt for having such little patience, for becoming so helpless, or well, feeling helpless. I think to myself...I need to write a book about Parenthood, A View From Down On My Knees. I would name it this because as a parent, you are ALWAYS on your knees, at least I am. I am on my knees praying, on my knees playing and on my knees cleaning...but on my knees am I. Mostly praying though. I pray for patience today, I am needing it ever so much today. I cannot say why exactly, I just need it. Maybe because today getting Tristan to nap is harder than usual. Maybe because my husband won't answer my call or call me back, or maybe becuase everytime I sit down to do something for myself, I am interupted. Now please do not think for one second that I am not VERY grateful of my baby boy. I am extremely blessed and I love him more than life itself, but I am stating what is true. I am just really wondering why I am the only one (it seems) to feel the way I do.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Watching My Words
The Valve
9 Jul 2010
Luann Prater
"Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark." James 3:5 (NIV)
My husband asked me to pick up some diesel fuel for the tractor. I had his truck and he had put the gas can in a box so it wouldn't tip over. Now, I'm 5'2", so can we just start there? Things that taller-than-me folks can do becomes a bit more of an issue for this vertically challenged gal. I pumped the gas into the can then tried to lift it, not only up to the bed of the truck, but over the top edge of the box. It was then I discovered the little valve cover was open.
A cup of gas escaped through that tiny opening, and strategically ran from the top of my t-shirt to the top of my pants. I panicke d that my cell phone might ring and light my fire! That wasn't the type of flame I was hoping God would fan in my life!
I scrubbed and scrubbed in the shower but the stench of gas remained in my nostrils.
My lips are like that little valve. It is such a small opening, yet the fuel that escapes can be unpleasant, caustic and even deadly. Loose lips have snapped at my family. Harsh tones have left friends feeling poisoned. Careless words have killed the spirit in a vulnerable child.
James tells us that our tongue is like a restless evil full of deadly poison. Ouch! My husband didn't want me to spill that gas; we wanted to use it for good. God doesn't want our tongues to open unless they are going to encourage and spur one another on.
Several years ago I made a very small, but very life-changing decision. When a hurtful thought comes into my head, I tighten my lips and force a pause button to appear in my brain. When I allow myself to have just a second to t hink about the potential hazard that could come from 'speaking my mind' it gives the Holy Spirit time to check my heart and motives. In that pause moment I say, "Lord, take control of this tongue." And He does.
Do I get it right every time? No. But I can see fewer wrecks in my life, fewer wounds, fewer poison-tipped darts flying out of this mouth. And I no longer reek of gasoline I added to the fire.
Want to join me? Pause. Seal up the valve and allow the Holy Spirit to work for good through the words you speak.
Dear Lord, thank You for reminding us that our tongue can rip a heart apart, or seal it back together. Teach us to pause long enough to give Your Spirit time to work in and through us. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
Related Resources:
Do You Know Him?
30 Days to Taming Your Tongue: What You Say (and Don't Say) Will Improve Your Relationships and accompanying Workbook by Deborah Smith Pegues
Chat more with Luann on her blog or hear her on Encouragement Café every Saturday!
Self Talk, Soul Talk: What to Say When You Talk to Yourself by Jennifer Rothschild
For more daily encouragement, follow us on Twitter and Facebook!
Application Steps:
Before anything negative slips past your lips today, hit the pause button. Pray that the Holy Spirit take control. Ask God to make you a peacemaker.
Below is todays Proverbs 31 Ministries Devotional. I try to read this daily, and when I do, I am usually encouraged. It's amazing what a few minutes reflecting on God's word can do for my life.
Lately, Chris and I have had our battles and I must admitt it is very challenging to watch my words. One minute I am smiling and being so sweet, and then the next, I am angry, tired and sick of it, and yep...those words start flowing out and they are lighting a fire within my husband, not a good one either, one that is ready to fire back, and then before I know it, were in a knock-down-drag-out-full-force FIGHT, could this have been avoided, perhaps, and perhaps not, but either way, I should have watched my words.
This is and will be a weakness for me, but today...I have hope that maybe, just maybe, I will connect completely with the WORD OF GOD and surrender to HIS WILL and WATCH MY WORDS. I know for certain that doing so will bring MORE PEACE to my home.
I think I fight with whether saying what I feel is SO nessesary to say, is indeed SO nessesary to say, when in the end, it only brings more frustration, more hurt, more anger.
-Darla
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Reflections:
Why do I say things I regret later?
When will I surrender my tongue to Jesus?
How can I allow my words to encourage instead of destroy?
Power Verses:
James 3:17, "But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere." (NIV)
Proverbs 27:15, "A quarrelsome wife is like a constant dripping on a rainy day." (NIV)
© 2010 by Luann Prater. All rights reserved.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Visiting with Aunt Christie


We went to visit my sister, and "Aunt Christie" and cousin Dylan. We drove up there, getting there pretty late, around 10 or so. We had a really great dinner. She is an amazing cook! She grilled steak, made salad, green beans and baked potatoes. Her home is beautiful. It was the first time we got to see it.Dylan loved holding Tristan. He was sweet with him. Christie just couldn't stop smiling at Tritan and wanted to hold him and help change his diaper the entire visit. She was simply precious with him. I loved that we were able to hang out with her and Dylan. She is an awesome housekeeper, clean freak like me.
I miss her alot and it meant so much to me to spend time with her. She is such a great Mom, and I am so, so proud of all of her acomplishments. She is a TRUE SURVIVOR. I am more proud of her than ever! I love you sis!
2 Months Old

At 2 months old you are
*Smiling alot. You smile at Mommy & Daddy mostly. But also at family and some
strangers.
*Eating every 2-3 hours during the day (Breastfeeding only still)
*At night you sleep in your bassinet (in our room,)from about midnight, till 4 or 5 AM, then you wake up, eat (BF),and return to sleep in your bassinet. Then wake up
again a few hours later, eat again and go back to sleep (usually in your swing-in
our room). Mommy and Daddy are finding the sleep routine hard, but we are hoping
that you will be sleeping better soon. Every now and then, you will sleep from
midnight till like 7 AM or so...which is awesome when you can do this.
*To get you to sleep, we give you a bath, massage you a little, nurse you and then
hold you a little bit until you look really sleepy and lay you in the bassinet.
You are still sleeping in our room because we are not comfortable letting you sleep
in your crib in your room until we have a monitor. You do not fall a sleep easy
at night.
*Your favorite time of the day is around 12 noon or sometimes 10:30-11:30...and
you are all smiles and giggly, a very happy baby boy!
*You can hold your neck up by yourself allot, and have great control. Your
strong, and love to kick your legs and fling your arms around. You love to lay
your neck back and strech out, looking all around, up and down.
*We can get you to laugh by tickling you, and this makes us smile so big and laugh
too. We love seeing you smile and hearing you laugh.
*Tummy time is getting better for you and you make allot of noises when your on
your tummy and it appears you like it more and more. You get frustrated though
that you cannot move (or at least it seems so)...
*You have had your first overnight visit, it was at Aunt Christie's house. She
made you laugh too (by tickling you), she loved having you over.
*You attended your first Andel Family Renuinon.
*You don't nap very well, and it is difficult getting you to nap.
*You love to have a bath, and look up at the faucet while leaning your head back
in the water.
*Your still wearing 0-3 clothes. I still love dressing you, your soooo cute!!!
*You really enjoy your swing, thank goodness!
*Your gassy allot, and cry really loud when your upset, hungry or tired.
*Your smile is contagious! We adore you. We are so blessed to have you.
*Your weighing about 12 lbs and are around 24 inches long.
*You had your 2nd overnight visit with Mommy at Mom Mom and Grandad's house while
Daddy did a 24 hour clinical for School. We missed him dearly.
*You had your first playdate, Sophie Sunshine Pollard. You and her are so
different. She seems to be much quieter and shy, whereas, you were smiling and
making all kinds of noises...over all it went well. Just hung out here at home.
*You went to your first visit with your Grandparents in Richmond.
Went well, had dinner at Larry's and visited.
*We are starting to see your expressions more and more and everyone tells us that
you are so cute, and make so many facial expressions, more than most babies.
*Growing up too fast! We love you more and more everyday.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Celebrating our 2 Year Aniversary & My Birthday
This year for my B-Day, I was pregnant and not able to do alot, plus financially we couldn't do much, so we went to Lupe Tortillas the day after my b-day and had a nice dinner.
For our Aniversary this year, again we couldn't afford much, and we had just had Tristan, so we went to dinner (the 3 of us) at Chuy's...the day after our special day, we had a yummy dinner.
A Visit to your Doctor
Your first visit to your doctor went well. Your dr's name is Dr.Wright, he is a pretty nice guy. You only got upset a little bit when we weighed you and the dr checked you out. But overall you really did good. You weighed around 8 lbs on your first visit. The dr was concerened that maybe you were not getting enough to eat, and advised that we watch your weight closely and nurse often. We were instructed to bring you in again after a few days to check your weight again, and when we did, you had gained a little and he was feeling better about everything.
Your second apt you had with the Dr you got your foot pricked for a blood tests and cried. I had a very hard time with this, watching you cry broke my heart and I cried too.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
"Time"
I know that this will sound weird, but I find myself asking myself what on earth am I going to do with my time. Weird right? Especially strange given that I am a new mom to a 2 month year old...but it is true. Let me try to explain. Last night it hit me that I am waiting all day for what to do next. My time is used so differently, and no, I am in no way complaining, but boy is it different. I told Chris last night, as I broke down crying", holding Tristan, I looked at him and explained that I wasn't sure what to do until midnight (which is when we go to sleep). I even admitted that I was waiting for that. I mean what else do I wait for...nothing really. I find it hard trying to explain it now as I write, but I need to, because I feel this is important, and strange, and one day maybe I will want to recall this memory. So, back to my "time" issue, yeah, so I am just wondering what to do sometimes, allot of times. When I am watching Tristan, or caring for him, I cannot do anything else, pretty much, and so I am staring at him, or nursing him, or talking to him, or trying to play or sing to him, hoping he will smile and melt my heart, which he does --allot :) But honestly, I look at the clock and only 5 minutes has passed and I am like, "what, it's only _____ o clock, and what the heck do I do next". Get the idea? So I am telling Chris this and he laughs, but understands. Seriously, it is becoming hard for him to figure out what to do, does it get better? I am guessing yes. When Tristan is being cared for by Chris it is simple, I know that I am going to do this and that and this and that, and I do it, and then come back to Tristan. I am so happy being a Mommy and he is one of my greatest blessings, but my time is passing day by day and I am wondering what I am doing with it all (time I mean). Does this little tiny human being know that he rules my world, and that it is all for him, all of our time? Probably not, but that is ok. I love that I can devote my time and I am truly blessed that I get to be with him all day and night, and I wouldn't change anything, I am just trying to adjust I guess. I remember when I spent my time on myself and now I spend it all (for the most part) on the 2nd love of my life, my beautiful baby boy, Tritan Dean. I love you baby boy.
Breastfeeding - Update as of 2 months
I thought I would write a short update on how bf is going these days and how it went from the start. I wasn't sure that I could say that I always knew that I was bf, or use formula or both. I could say that I didn't really make the decision or choice until I became pregnant with Tristan (I think I thought of it a little with Elliana, but I honestly don't remember). But with Tristan, I knew that I wanted to, and needed to bf for as long as I possibly could, and prayed hard that we would be able to bf with ease. The Lord has blessed us and I have been bf exclusively now since Tristan was born. He has never had anything but breast milk and the breast. I know that I need to pump and introduce a bottle, but this is no easy task. I will talk more about pumping later.
When Tristan was born, via c-section, he was healthy and we were able to bond quickly afterwards and he was introduced to our parents, and then after a short time with them, I put him to me to nurse. He did remarkably well, and I (even though I was not confident) seemed to do pretty well myself. This new bond was so sweet and I felt so needed by him, I felt that he and I became so close, so fast, it was a huge blessing. I can't say that it hurt too bad because I was on meds from the surgery. After the meds started to wear off, it did hurt a bit, but nothing unbearable, and it only really hurt right when he latched on. I continued to pray that bf would work well for him and I, and God has been so faithful in blessing us.
We needed and still need to bf, as we are financially hurting so bad that this is our best solution for his needs when it comes to being nurished, and our abilities financially. Plus, it really helps me and Tristan bond, and it is a special time I get him apart from the world, it is our time to share glances of Mother and Son and I am embracing this bond and treasuring it everytime.
I must also admit that although it is a huge blessing and I love it, I really do; there are times where I find myself stressed, and a little bothered, just being honest. Those times are in the morning, when I am all warm, cozy and very tired, and he is hungry, and it is hard to remember our "special time" when I am really just wanting to sleep. I pray for strength and drink my coffee and look into his beautiful eyes and love him, I nurse him, and thank my Lord for him, for the miracle that he is.
At 2 months old he is still nursing exclusively. He bf about every 2 hours during the day and at night he is starting to sleep for 5-6 hours, which is AWESOME! I have tried to pump once, and it didn't go very well. I haven't tried again. I need to try again, and will wait until he can go longer in between feedings during the day.
"Can I Hold Him?"
Your cousin Clayton Eggleston has taken quite a liking to you Tristan. It is so cute! When you were born, he and his family (my brother) came to visit you at the hospital and he was very sweet with you. He quickly asked to hold you, sat in a chair with the boppy pillow in his lap and held you as long as he could. You got a little heavy for him and his sister Rachel took over, but he didn't take his eyes off you. I loved the gentleness he showed toward you and know that when you get older that you two will probably be best buds. We went to visit your "Mom-Mom" and "Grandad" a few weeks ago and Clayton had stopped by with his Dad and he asked to hold you again. I let him of course.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
1 Month Old
Wow, the time flies. You are already 1 month old. We have had quite the journey to get you here, and you are now 1 month old, and we have loved every second, even the times when you cry your little heart out, and the times when we are fighting just to keep our eyes open. We love you so much baby boy.
You are now weighing about 9.13 lbs and are really beginning to settle into your new home here with your mommy and daddy. We are starting to get the hang of caring for you, which is all consuming, but we adore you, so it's all worth it. You seem to cry the most between 5 PM-7PM, we are not sure why, but we just try to comfort you. You begin your mornings in a pretty good mood, ready to take on the day...and I need a cup of coffee, and a shower, but we fake till we make it! Daddy and I are always tired, but that's parenthood we hear.
In the mornings I feed you (you are nursed) and then change you and get you dressed. You like this part, you are usually wide eyed and happy. You are eating every 2 hours about. In the evening time lately, we are bathing you, massaging you (I do this --you love it), nursing you and trying to put you to bed. You love the bath, (you must get this from me, I love, love, love bath's!!!). You get tired around the time I massage you (I use the sleepy time lotion-Johnson's and Johnson's) and you barely can keep your eyes open. I think it is really sweet and every night, I hope and pray it makes you really tired and that you fall asleep easily and sleep really well. You sometimes can sleep up to 4 or 5 hours at a time, which is awesome.
You make noises and move your arms around allot when you are drifting off to sleep. You also love your pacifier, and we give it to you allot, but when you don't want it, you spit it out. We hold it in your mouth allot when you are upset or really tired, you like that, and it helps you.
When you are active, and alert, which you seem to be very much at certain times of the day, we love watching you. We are in love with your little noises and look forward to hearing more.
You are still weating a few of your newborn outfits but starting to wear your 0-3 clothes too. I love dressing you in cute outfits and I take tons of pictures of you. I can't stop snapping away! You will be happy though when you are older and have allot of pictures. I was adopted and only have like 1 or 2 pictures of when I was a baby, so I can't help but capture everything.
You make the cutest faces, we love them!!! Are most favorite of all, of course, is your smile. You have the cutest smile. Your "Mom Mom" says that you make allot more facial expressions and that you are more alert than most babies.
You are long, and we think you will take after your Daddy in height, thank goodness because I am short. Your hair is gorgeous! You have allot of it. The color is medium brown, but when you were born it was more of a dark brown.
We love you so much Tristan, we are so blessed to have you. We are praying for you and thank the Lord for you daily. We are treasuring every moment.
Gracie's Got A New Friend
So we really weren't sure how Miss Gracie was going to handle the new baby. We were told by most that she probably would do well, but many also worried that she wouldn't, as she was very much used to allot of attention, and let's face it, I totally spoiled her. She was my baby girl forever, and I was not sure what to think. But since the day we brought Tristan home she has been so sweet to him. He is her new best friend, of course I will always remain her favorite.
She is always still following me around and wants to be at my side all the time. But if I am with Tristan, she is as close to him as she can possibly get. It is sweet, and I am so relieved that she is taking to him so well.
Labels: Tristan
Your First Bath
Your first bath (well actually it was a sponge bath) went, well, not so great. You hated it, and cried the entire time. Which I guess you just didn't like it maybe because you were not in water, but being just sponged down. who knows! I gave you the bath and your Daddy video taped, so when you are older you can see it. I can't say it will be very enjoyable though, you seriously cried the entire time. The only time you let up a little wailing is when we washed your hair, and you did a little better at that point.
Owell, at least you like bath time now.
Bringing You Home
When the Dr released you and I to go home, we were so excited. I started getting dressed and Daddy started calling our parents and a few friends to let them know we were coming home. Then we packed up our gifts we had recieved and my hospital bag and got you dressed in your special take home outfit. You looked so cute! We loaded everything on a cart, Daddy pushed it and the nurse pushed me in a wheel chair out to the car. Daddy was so excited! He came running back to the hospital with the empty cart and then ran really fast back to the car (it was cold outside). He pulled up in the car and helped get you in the car seat, and he did great. Then nurse helped me in the car, then accidentially slammed my finger in the car, ouch!!! It hurt real bad, but I was on some meds, thank goodness, or it might have been allot worse.
You did pretty good in the car. I sat in the back seat with you. It was weird (but great) driving with you. We had waitied for you to fill that seat. We stared at the empty seat for weeks waiting for you baby. We were so happy you were with us and we were taking you home. I was nervous to be in the car with you. I knew Daddy was a great driver and that he would be extra careful, but the other drivers, well, I wasn't so sure of. I again had to remain faithful.
We arrived home, my parents there to greet us and help out a little bit. They were there with dinner (camping chicken-yummy, and helped us unload the car. They held you while your Daddy and got settled in at home. We realized quickly that I and you would have to stay in the guest room for awhile (which we did until you were about 5-6 weeks) because I couldn't get in and out of the bed in our room. So we set up camp in the guestroom. Your Daddy helped me in the shower and into bed and slept in the room with us for a few nights.
Your first night home was very hard. We both said to eachother that we probably should have stayed one more night at the hospital, which we could have, but decided to leave early. Most c-sec mommies sta 4 nights, we stayed 3 (6 total though-counting labor). You cried allot, we thought probably because of your sourroundings, you poor little baby, you were probably scared. You ate every two hours and your Daddy and I kept track (writing down) everytime you ate, peed and pooped. It was allot to keep up with. We did this to give to your Dr. You got better though after a few days, and you didn't cry nearly as much.
Becoming "DAD"
Chris was awesome during my pregnancy. He remained so calm (most all the time), he gave me strengh, he made me smile and laugh, and he prayed constantly. He and I had a rough couple of months, and stayed faithfull to God and our marriage was blessed through this journey.
The few days before going in for the induction, his had a look on his face of "I'm ready", and I loved it. I loved seeing his excitement. I asked him often if he was worried or scared, or nervous, and he would always reply that he trusted God and that he was just ready.
On the day of the induction, he was great. He was very supportive and happy. During the days of labor he was an amazing husband and friend. I am forever blessed to have his support during that time, and I am so in love with him! He was so strong and faithfull during the wait and made me feel calm when I needed him the most.
After having Tristan he was changed, and he became more gentle, and I love seeing him in his new role of "Daddy". I love wathching him interact, care and love his baby son. I am so blessed to have him.
A Mother's Touch
I wasn't sure whether I would have my mother in the room during labor. I told her that I might and that I would let her know when the day came. I did, and I mean I really, really did. Even when your 32 years old, you still somehow need, very much, the loving touch and comfort that only your own mother can provide.
The days when I was in labor, my worst day, and the other days, she was there. She was there to pray, to hold my hand, to cry for me out in the hall because she felt so deeply for me, she longed to make my pain disapear. She smiled and gently told me I was doing well. I cannot begin to express my sincere gratitude for her ability and desire to comfort me during those days of pain like I had never experienced in my life. Yes, Chris was there, and he was amazing, and strong, and a sweet and kind husband, holding my hand too, praying too and comforting me, but it was somehow different. Not any better or worse, just different.
I am so happy and blessed to have had her loving support those days and hours that dragged on for what felt like forever. I am also so blessed for the support of my Father, who I was told by my mother, prayed everyday of my pregnancy for me, and Baby Tristan. I am forever blessed by thier sweet spirit that helped them stay awake to remain at my side and in the waiting room area during the surgery, and not leaving the hospital until 2:30 AM. Those memories of having my Mother there will always remain in my heart, I will never be able to thank her enough for the gentleness of her touch, for the hours spent on her knees praying, for her smiles that lit the dark hospital room up and reminded me I was ok, for the special ways of encouraging me, and most of all for her willingness to adapt to my every changing moods.
After having Tristan, I was so proud and excited to introduce her and my Father to the grandchild they prayed for and the son I prayed for, thiers and my miracle, Tristan Dean Andel.
I love you in more ways than I could ever express. My love for you deepens as my days progress. Our long or short talks inspire me, give me hope, and make me smile. You are always there, and for this and SO MUCH MORE, you are amazing. I am so blessed to have you as my Mother, and one of my BEST FRIENDS.
Thank you. I love you.
Any Day Now
At the end of my pregnancy I was really starting to feel like,"any day now" would be great for you to come and join us. We had tried very hard for so long to keep you in the womb, healthy, safe, and happy. I took so many meds, shots, and stayed on bedrest to make sure that you would enter this world healthy and at a reasonable age...well did you ever!
However, those last few weeks and days, I treasured, absolutely, but let's face it, I was also pretty much at the limit of skin streching ability, exhaustion, and barely fit into my maternity clothes. It took a long time just to wiggle out of bed, and I peed ALL the time. You laid very low in my tummy, and I hurt allot, due to the weight of you, but don't every worry, you were completly worth it. I would do it ALL again, even if it was worse (not that it could be worse-I'm telling you--I had it rough)!
But as tough as it was, I was so blessed, God had given us a miracle, and that miracle was YOU!
Fighting the Lights-Tristan's Jaundice
After you were born, the Dr at the hospital told us that you had jaundince.
Neonatal jaundice is a yellowing of the skin and other tissues of a newborn infant. A bilirubin level of more than 85 umol/l (5 mg/dL) manifests clinical jaundice in neonates whereas in adults 34 umol/l (2 mg/dL) would look icteric. In newborns jaundice is detected by blanching the skin with digital pressure so that it reveals underlying skin and subcutaneous tissue. Jaundice newborns have an apparent icteric sclera, and yellowing of the face, extending down onto the chest. This condition is common in upwards of 70% of newborns.
This was one memory that haunts me, it was horrible and so difficult. I cannot even begin to tell you how hard it was to hear that you had it, and then go through photo light therapy to heal it. That 24 hour period lasted forever to us, it felt more like days than just 24 hours. You hated it, and I mean HATED it! You were so small and only wanted to be held and comforted and couldn't. It broke us to peices seeing you so upset. You had to lay on a bed of light and under lights and where goggles (we kept them for you to see when you get older). You kept movin your tiny head so the goggles wouldn't stay put, and you would cry and cry. Most of the time Daddy stood above you, holding the goggles on you and your perfect little hands, it was his way of trying to keep the goggles on and provide some type of comfort to you. Sometimes you would be ok, but most of the time you weren't. When it was time to feed you, I would pick you up with the light bed under you, and had to nurse you this way everytime.
The nurses made me worry everytime they took you back to get checked for your bili levels, and Daddy and me prayed that you would be healed of it, and wouldn't have to be under the lights anymore. This time truly tested our faith, our patience and made us realize more and more how deeply, deeply we loved you Baby Boy.
Finally the Dr realeased you from photo therapy and told us you would be able to go home. Words cannot describe our emotions at that point. Daddy had prayed so hard and hoped so much to take you home, he was soooo ready to take you home. We were so releived and so excited that you were better.
Our First Moments Together
The first time I held you so many emotions ran through my mind. I was so relieved that you were here, in my arms, safe, healthy and beautiful. I couldn't believe it! You were so small, so soft, and so innocent. I loved every part of your being. I forgot so quickly that I had gone through so much pain to get you here. In our first moments together I knew you were my miracle, my gift from God. Oh, Tristan, will you ever know how much that first moment meant. You are so special to me, I love you so dearly. I forgot that I had just been cut open so that you could come into this world. I wish I would have been able to see you open your eyes for the very first time, but I was able to hear your first cry. Oh how I treasured that sound, that sound was heavenly, it was what I had longed to hear forever. You cried and my heart opened more, it opened more so that I could love more. I cried too, I couldn't hold my emotions back. We were so blessed baby boy. We loved you instantly when we found out we were pregnant and loved you even more when we saw you the first time. You were a big boy, a whoping 10 lbs you were! We were shocked! We never expected you to be so big. I had been on bedrest for all of the pregnancy basically and did eat my fair share of Milky Ways :) but still, we didn't expect 10 lbs. But nevertheless, we were in love! A chubby little face, you had, and barely opening your eyes, the world was so big and scary I am sure, coming from your nice and small home in my womb. But baby boy, this world, as scary and big as it is, it is full of so many new and exciting adventures yet to discover. You are going to be amazing! You are a miracle, never forget that! Your father and I were scared often that we would never meet you, God had other plans. God held you in his hands, as he still does and will always. I pray that you seek him all the days of your life. I pray that you make him your very, very best friend.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
He Smiled At Me
Tristan is about 6 1/2 weeks old today. Last night he did amazingly well. I gave him a bath at around 11:30, massaged him with Sleepy Time Lotion and nursed him. I had hoped he'd fall asleep shortly after I fed him, but he took a little longer to fall asleep than I had hoped. He finally went into his basinett around 1 am, which is awesome compared to drifting off around 3 AM, which is what he normally does. We too went to sleep. I thought for sure he would wake up around 3 or 4 AM to eat, or around 6, but he slept till a 7 AM!!! I couldn't believe, or maybe I did wake up with him, but I was so tired that I don't remember, but I am pretty sure he slept, I slept and Chris slept. IT WAS WONDERFUL! An answered prayer for sure. I think God knows when we just really need to sleep. Thank you God.
So, this morning after I fed him, he wasn't at all ready to just drift back into dreamland,so Chris took him into the guest room. He takes him in there to give me silence so I can sleep. It is impossible to sleep when he makes a noise every other second. I slept and they hung out. Of course later this morning, Chris told me that he fell back a sleep around 8:30 AM and slept till around 11 AM. Anyways, back to the point of this story. Chris brought him in our room (I was already up-showered and ready to feed him)it was about 12 PM. He was changing his diaper-and of course Tristan was crying because he was being changed and very hungry I'm sure. I walked over to him, looked at him and smiled and guess what...HE SMILED SO BIG!!! I know he recognized me, I just know it! He smiled so big and kept smiling. It was a moment I will never forget, he was so sweet, so happy. I love this baby boy.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
A good reading
I Want to Leave a Legacy
9 Mar 2010
Melanie Chitwood
"I will sing of the lovingkindness of the Lord forever; to all generations I will make known your faithfulness with my mouth." Psalm 89:1 (NAS)
What do your children think of when they think of you? Their answers would be very revealing, wouldn't they? One day in early elementary school, Zachary came home with a Mother's Day picture he'd created for me. In the middle was a lovely portrait of me, wearing a dress made in my favorite colors of pink and purple. Then around the picture his teacher had told him to write four different words to describe his mom. He wrote: reading, napping, chocolate chip cookies, and laughing. His words made me smile with their accuracy.
Every day we are leaving our fingerprints on our kids. What do we want our children to think of when they think of their p arents? A mom who was gentle and firm in her discipline or a mom who flew off the handle easily? A mom who seemed permanently attached to her phone or a mom who was available for life's big and small moments? A mom who occasionally went to church or a mom whose love of God was a part of her everyday life?
A legacy can be defined as "something handed down." Every day through our words and actions we are developing a legacy to be carried in the character of our children. It's easy for the busyness of life to keep you from being purposeful in your parenting. Let's decide today to leave the legacy we really want. Let's make sure it's a legacy not born of busyness and urgency, but one born of purposefulness and prayer.
It always helps me to remember that God is a parent too. So who better to turn to for parenting advice? It also helps me to know that God loves my children even more than I do, and He will fill in the gaps for me and Scott as we seek Him first. No matter what kind of parent you've been, today you can decide to add to and improve the legacy you are leaving. These are the only days we have with our children. We don't get them back. Let's begin today to be the parents we really want to be.
Dear Lord, thank You so much for each of my children. I need Your help every day to be the parent You want me to be. Lord, I'm human and I know that as a parent, I've made mistakes and will in the future. Lord, redeem the past and strengthen me for the future. Lord, thank You that You will give me Your love, wisdom, strength, direction, and patience to be the best parent for my children. Help me to leave a legacy that brings You glory and one that will enable my children to know how much You love them. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
Related Resources:
This devotion was adapted from What A Wife Needs From Her Husband by Melanie Chitwood
What a Husband Needs from His Wife by Melanie Chitwood
Season of Change: Parenting Your Middle Schooler with Passion and Purpose by Rebecca Ingram Powell
Check out Melanie's blog for information about her upcoming marriage conference call, "Buildi ng a Marriage that Will Last a LIfetime." She'll be giving away a free conference call!
For more encouragement, read A Legend of Faith
Mining for Gold in the Heart of Your Child Character Chart and Message on CD, by Renee Swope
Application Steps:
Your children will learn to pray as they hear you pray. Pray with them on the way to school, throughout the day to thank God or to ask for His help, and tuck them in each night with your prayers. And don't stop praying with them when they're teens. Even though your teens may be pulling away from you, they still need to know you're covering them with prayer.
Choose a verse for the whole family to memorize each week. Display it in the kitchen or some other visible place.
Reflections:
Think about your everyday actions. Which of your actions point your children's hearts to the Lord?
Think about your attitude in frustrating or stressful situations. Are you modeling Christ's attitude in these situations?
What is one action step you can take this week to leave a legacy of faith for your children?
Power Verses:
Deuteronomy 6:5-9, "Love GOD, your God, with your whole heart: love him with all that's in you, love him with all you've got! Write these commandments that I've given you today on your hearts. Get them inside of you and then get them inside your children. Talk about them wherever you are, sitting at home or walking in the street; talk about them from the time you get up in the morning to when you fall into bed at night. Tie them on your hands and foreheads as a reminder; inscribe them on the doorposts of your homes and on your city gates. (Message)
Proverbs 22:6, "Direct your children onto the right path, and when they are older, they will not leave it." (NLT)
Psalm 79:13, "So we Your people, the sheep of Your pasture, will give thanks to You forever; to all generations we will tell of Your praise." (NAS)
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Tuesday, February 16, 2010
The Birth Story of Tristan

Our story begins on Wednesday, January 27th, at 4 PM. Chris and I had told Dr Young that our insurance ended on Jan 30 and therefore, we had to have him prior to this date. So, our induction was set for the 27th.
The few days before the induction we cleaned the house, top to bottom, shopped for food for the few meals to freeze for later dinners after the baby would be here, and made a diaper wreath. We also visited our friends Chris and Alison in the hospital, they had a baby girl. The nights leading up to the big day, neither of us slept that well, we were so excited and eager about the upcoming event. I was getting more nervous as the day approached. Finally it was here, the big day. We woke up that Wednesday morning, I had a nice breakfast, my coffee and finished a few final touches on the diaper wreath, and cooking frozen meals. We lost track of time and didn't have enough of it to complete all the meals I had intended to cook, but Chris made me realize, we needed to stop, take a breath, get showered and get going, so I did.
On the car ride to the hospital, I felt excited, but nervous, and anxious, and little weird. I kept thinking to myself, wow, we are seriously going to the hospital to have our baby, the baby we've waited for, for so long. Our day was finally here, and boy did I have so many emotions. We had made so many trips to the hospital, paticulary to the Labor and Delivery Dept in the past 2 years, but mostly the past 9 months, and eventually went back home, without a baby, and waited, followed Dr's orders of bedrest, meds and sleepless nights, but now, here we were, in the car, driving to the hospital, and this time, this time would be so different, this time, we would be coming home with a baby, our BABY. Chris was excited, he had a look on his face of pure excitement and readiness. We were both ready.
We arrived at the hospital, St.Lukes, The Woodlands, and carried our bags to the 2nd floor, L&D. The nurses were expecting us, and right away, lead us to our room (room 207), which they had already had prepared for us. The room was large, inviting, and cozy.



The nurse asked me to change into a hospital gown, they are just so lovely, umm, not really, they are horrible looking, and make anyone look like a huge cow. I changed into my gown, and obeying orders, laid down on the hospital bed. The nurse began asking me questions about medical history and such, and all the usual questions you get asked when you get admitted into a hospital. I gave her my birth plan. Chris and I had found a birth plan online, and changed it up a bit to fit our needs and wants. Pretty normal stuff I guess...you know, I want an epidural, drugs for pain, hubby to cut cord, and that I would be breastfeeding exclusively. She then hooked me up to the monitoring equipment...thump, thump, thump, baby's heartbeat was our music, and beautiful music at that. We watched the baby's heartbeat and my contractions on the computer screen. All the initial stuff took about an hour and half, and then Dr Young showed up. Quiet as usual, he just asked how I was doing and insterted the Cervidil. He smiled and said goodbye, telling me that he would see us in the morning, early morning. I then had to lay completely still on my back for 2 hours. Sounds easy right? NOT really! It sucked, I had a huge tummy and laying flat on my back wasn't the easiest and most comfy, especially for 2 hours. The nurse said that the Cervidil had to settle into the cervix and it required my staying completley still for this to happen the right way. For the next 2 hours, Chris and I smiled at each other, excited about the event soon to take place, updated facebook, sent emails, called a few friends and family and settled into our new home (room 207). After the 2 hours passed, I was so relieved to be able to stand up, strech out, and walk to the potty. The Cervidil remained inside, working it's magic (or so we had thought). We both slept ok that night, not great, but ok...mostly due to the excitement.
Jan 28th- At 6 in the morning, the nurse removed the Cervidil and I took a shower. Then that morning, the Dr started Poticin. This medicine was given through my I.V. and was used to induce labor. That morning, I was only dialated to a one (which I had been dialted to a one for about 2 weeks already). The medicine was strong, and the nurse kept increasing the level every couple of hours. My contractions were fairly strong, and I used pain meds through my iv to help control the pain. I tried to go back to sleep that morning, but didn't really, I mostly just laid there, I watched Chris sleep, and day dreamed about Tristan, and wondered how the rest of the labor would be. By 12:30 or so, the meds were not working, and I had still not dialated past 1 centimeter, Dr. Young took me off the Potocin and decided to put Cervidil in again overnight, and do Potocin again the next morning. We were pretty disapointed, frustrated, and confused. We had hoped labor would have moved a little faster, but I am different than most, and my body never reacts as most do. I decided to take a bath. The bathroom had a huge jacuzzi bathtub, I loved it, it was so nice. I then got back into bed, and the Dr put Cervidil in again. That evening, Chris and stayed faithful, prayed allot and hoped for a better day the following day.
Jan 29th -At 4 AM the nurse (her name was Darla--pretty cool!) removed the Cervidil and I took a shower, taking my time, I really enjoyed the shower, and knew that it would be my last shower pregnant. I rubbed my enormous belly, loving it, strech marks and all, I loved it. It meant that there was a baby inside, a baby that we made out of love, a baby, a gift from our Lord above, I was so in love, and so excited. Tired, but awake, awake with excitement, nervous but trusting in God. I spent an hour getting showered, relaxing, doing my hair and putting a little bit of makeup on, hoping to look half way decent when Tristan made his grand entrance into this world. Darla (my nurse) and I walked to the room which held the ice chips (which was all I could I have at that point)... then we walked back to my room. At 5 AM the Potocin was put back on. The Potocin was increased every few hours, then every 20 mins...it was very difficult, very painful, the contractions were very strong, and very close together...
At 11:30 or so, Dr Young tried to check my progress (dialation), but I was in so much pain, he couldn't even really check me. He convinced me that it was really nessesary to get the epidural at that point. I was planning on waiting a while longer, but he felt it would really help our cause...so, epi was requested and put in. It wasn't really that bad, and I handled it well. Chris had to leave the room, which I hated, but I made it through, and after it settled in and began relieving my pain, I was all smiles! Chris made a comment, "it is nice to see you smile again". For a short amount of time, the epi(which wasn't allot of water-and the fluid kept oozing out over the next few hours, and I had dialted to 2 centimeters.. and I didn't feel a thing...but soon...the pain was back, and it was discovered that the epi didn't work that well. I had all movement abilitites with my legs (which you shouldn't really have), and I was feeling allot more pain that I should have with an epi in my back. The epi Dr tried to fix it several times, I was SO frustrated with them, they acted like I was crazy and not really believing me that I was in so much pain, and were not that friendly. It sucked so much that they could not get my pain under control. I was really hurting, and I was so upset that I could not get relief.
At around 9 PM that day, Dr Young checked me and I had progressed to 5 centimeters! We were excited, thinking that it meant that I might have Tristan that evening, and fairly quickly, and naturally at that. However, our night got worse, my pain became allot worse. I also developed a fever, first it was 101, then it went to 102, even after iv fluids for fever and meds to reduce fever, nothing helped, and eventually I was given iv antibiotics for prevention of some type of infection. The contractions were literally on top of one of another, I was screaming often, crying, and holding on to the rails of the bed or Chris or my Mothers hand through each horrific contraction. Nothing helped, I have never felt that kind of pain. I was so worried, I felt like it would never end, I seriously kept thinking "when will this ever end"/...it felt like there was no end in sight, I did not progress, and stayed at 5 for hours and hours. My Mother and Dad were there, I needed them, and was so encouraged by there support, and even at 32, I needed the special warm touch of my Mother. I will never forget how much it meant to have her there that day, to have her comfort me. She told me later that it was so hard to watch me in that amount of pain, and that often she had to walk out of my room, go to the hall, sit down and cry, because she couldn't bare to see me that way. I love her so dearly. Chris was amazing. He stayed so calm, and strong for me. He rarely left my side, and offered so much compassion and encouragement, I couldn't of asked for a better husband that day. He reasured me often, praised my efforts, stroked my hand softly, kissed me softly, and provided me with his lovely face and smiles to remind me of the love he so willingly gave and felt, and reminded me of why I was to endure this pain....for our son. At around 12:00 AM, the nurse finally got a phone call from DR Young stating that would be preforming a c section on me, due to my cervix not dialating, fever and the time already spent in labor, this was the news I needed to hear. Minutes before hearing this from her, I litterally had given up, I could not go anymore like that, I was done, I was so exhausted, in so much pain, I needed somthing to happen, because I couldn't go anymore. They stopped the Potocin, which was very helpful in helping my contractions ease up a bit. Quickly Chris changed into scrubs for the operating room, and I said my goodbyes to parents and Chris. The OR was filled with Dr's and nurses and I was so scared...the epi was removed and in place of it, the spinal block was put in. The spinal block worked really well, and putting it in place even went well. It seemed like forever before Chris was lead into the OR and was sitting at my head, holding my hand. We waited for his cry, I cried, and was so nervous. Chris and I were so blessed, so happy and so overjoyed when finally, after 3 days of labor, Tristan made his arrival into the world. On January 30, 2010 at 12:51 AM, Tristan Dean Andel cried his first cry and opened his beautiful bright eyes! We have it all on video! It is amazing. The whole birth experience was amazing....painful, long and not how we had expected, but AMAZING!!!!
After the birth, the Dr's sewed me up and I was brought back into my hospital room for recovery (a new room though--room 213.) My parents and Bekki and Mac were in the hallway waiting. I was so excited to see my Mom and Dad. Chris carried Tristan to my room, and then he handed me him and I was so happy to be holding him. Since it was so late, I decided to wait to feed him and allowed our families to come in and see him. They took a few pics and left around 2 AM. Then I nursed him awhile and Chris and I enjoyed staring at our beautiful baby boy. A nurse came in and took Tristan for tests (normal tests) and then came back into my room with him and gave him his first sponge bath. I watched from my bed. Chris had fallen asleep. Tristan didn't make a fuss or anything, he was very tired, and I think he even enjoyed getting all cleaned up. I loved watching his first bath. I don't remember how long I stayed up watching him, but eventually fell asleep. 

Monday, February 8, 2010
Photo Shoot
















I wanted to write briefly about our pregnancy photo shoot. Chris and I did not have the funds available to get a professional photo shoot done, so I posted an add on craigslist.com.
After reviewing several emails, our add and God lead us to a very kind gentleman who offered to do our pics for free. He and his wife came over on the weekend and we took allot of pictures. He is going to be putting them on CD, editing them and hopefully sending them our way soon. I have not heard from him in awhile...so, I hope that everything is ok.